Bad things turn into good
01.18.05 (4:25 pm) [edit]It is nice to be back at school. Sorry, I haven't updated in a week! I have been very busy and unable to access the internet!
This blog is kind of a serious note. In my freelance writing class today each person had to suggest five life events that have affected them greatly. We were then supposed to pick one to write a ten-page reflection paper on. While I listed my five events, the professor asked me to write about the most personal one - sexual assault. It was the first time I have ever spoken to a crowd about it. I have only ever talked about being attacked on a one-on-one basis with people I trust before. It felt odd and overwhelming to talk about it to a group. Giving each person that information about me made me feel very, very vulnerable.
One person came up to me after class and asked me how I could talk about it freely. I told him that I couldn't. This was the first time I spoke about it to a small group (the class is 10 people). I might have appeared calm, but on the inside I was shaking.
It is difficult to talk about and even harder to remember. But in all honesty, if I can help another girl (or guy) who has been through a similiar experience know that God is there for her - it is worth it all. "Count it all joy"
There are things in your life that you think you will never get through. But then you do and later God can use the most horrible, awful experiences for His glory.
posted by: trickangle (reply)
post date: 01.18.05 (7:09 pm)
I'm really proud of you. I know how tough that must have been. What were the other four events?
posted by: hopie (reply)
post date: 01.19.05 (11:30 am)
1. Sexual assault by acquaintances, never family.
2.When a friend of mine in high school committed suicide because he was teased. He had a chemical imbalance which also contributed to his problems. I found out after the funeral that he had accepted Christ as his savior a week prior to that.
3. Another important event was when my parents took me aside and told me that I could always be completely honest with them about everything. Even if I had gotten involved in something wrong, like drugs or alcohol, etc. They did this when I was 15 years old and I always felt like I could be 100 % open with them. They are amazing parents..
4.When I was 5 years old I broke one of my mother's bowls. I asked my mom if we prayed for a new bowl, if Jesus would give us a new one. She said yes and we prayed together. When we looked in the cupboard there was a new bowl!!!! That experience amazed me because my mom had the faith to tell me to pray and it also amazed me that God cares about every little part of our lives.
5. Coming to NCU when I was 18 . It was a leap of faith because I knew no one, I didn't know very much about the college (just that I felt God was calling me there), I was paying my own way (and still am) and I it was the first time I was on my own. God moved in me a lot that year. He broke a lot of assumptions I had about Him, life and spirituality. I think I am still coming to grips with who He really, truly is!
posted by: hopie (reply)
post date: 01.19.05 (11:31 am)
These events are probably not the most significant events in my life, but they were the ones I could recall at the time I was writing the assignment!
posted by: SnowBird (reply)
post date: 01.20.05 (6:58 pm)
I really like your border!